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Sliver of Truth

Chapter 1

I'm running but I can't run much farther. The pain in my side
already has me limping; there's fire in my lungs. I can't hear his
footfalls. But I know he's not far away. I know now that he's been
right beside me all my life in one way or another. I'm the light;
he's the shadow. We've coexisted without ever meeting. If I'd been
a good girl, the girl I was raised to be, I never would have known
him. But it's too late for regrets.

I'm on Hart Island in the Bronx, a place known as Potter's Field.
It's the city cemetery for the unknown and indigent--a grim and
frightening place. How we've all wound up here is a long story, but
I know the story will end here--maybe just for some, maybe for all
of us. A tall abandoned building that seems to sag upon itself
looms ahead of me. It's a darker night than I have ever known, in
more ways than one. The sliver of moon is hidden behind a thick
cloud cover. It's hard to see but I watch as he disappears through
a door that hangs crooked on its hinges. I follow.

"Ridley!" The call comes from behind me. But I don't answer. I just
keep moving until I am standing at the entrance to the building. I
hesitate there, looking at the crooked, sighing structure and
wondering if it's not too late to turn around.

Then I see him, up ahead of me. I call out but he doesn't answer
me, just turns and slowly starts to move away. I follow. If I
valued my life and my sanity, I'd let him get away and hope he did
the same for me. We could go back to the way things have been. He
dwelling in a world I never even knew existed, me going about my
very ordinary life, writing magazine articles, seeing movies,
having drinks with friends.

Fear and rage duke it out in my chest. Hatred has a taste and a
texture; it burns like bile in my throat. For a moment, I hear the
voice of someone I loved: Ridley, you can release the hatred and
walk away. It's nothing more than a single choice. We can both do
it. We don't need all the answers to live our lives. It doesn't
have to be like this. A few minutes later, he was gone.

I know now that those words were lies. Hatred doesn't release.
Walking away is not one of my choices. Maybe it never was. Maybe
I've been in the path of this freight train all my life, lashed to
the tracks, too weak, too foolish, too stubborn to even try to save

As I enter the building, I think I might hear the rumble of boat
engines. I feel a distant flutter of hope and wonder if help is
coming. I hear my name again and look behind me to see a man who
has become my only friend moving unsteadily toward me. He is
injured and I know it will take him a while to reach me. I think
for a second that I should go to him, help him. But inside I hear
movement and the groaning of an unstable structure. My breathing
comes shallow and quick. I step deeper inside.

"Stop running, you coward!" I yell into the huge darkness. My voice
resonates in the deserted space. "Let me see your face."

My voice bounces off the surfaces around me again. I don't sound
scared and heartbroken, but I am. I sound strong and sure. I take
the gun from the waist of my jeans. The metal is warm from my skin.
In my hand, it feels solid and righteous. This is the second time
in my life I've held a gun with the intent to use it. I don't like
it any better than the first time, but I'm more confident now, know
that I can fire if pressed.

He steps out from the shadows, seems to move silently, to glide
like the ghost that he is. I take a step toward him and then stop,
raise my gun. I still can't see his face. A milky light has started
to shine through the gaping holes in the ceiling as the moon moves
through a break in the cloud cover. Shapes emerge in the darkness.
He starts moving toward me slowly. I stand my ground but the gun
starts shaking in my hand.

"Ridley, don't do it. You'll never be able to live with it."

The voice comes from behind me and I spin around to see someone I
didn't expect to see again.

"This is none of your business," I yell, and turn back to the man
I've been chasing.

"Ridley, don't be stupid. Put that gun down." This voice behind me
sounds desperate, cracks with emotion. "You know I can't let you
kill him."

My heart rate responds to the fear in his voice. What am I doing?
Adrenaline is making my mouth dry, the back of my neck tingle. I
can't fire but I can't lower the gun, either. I have the urge to
scream in my fear and anger, my frustration and confusion, but it
all lodges in my throat.

When he's finally close enough to see, I gaze upon his face. And
he's someone I don't recognize at all. I draw in a gasp as a wide,
cruel smile spreads across his face. And then I get it. He is the
man they say he is.

"Oh, God," I say, lowering my gun. "Oh, no."

Chapter 2

I bet you thought you'd heard the end of me. You might have at
least hoped that I'd had my fill of drama for one lifetime and that
the road ahead of me would not hold any more surprises, that things
would go pretty smoothly from now on. Believe me, I thought so,
too. We were both wrong.

About a year ago, a series of mundane events and ordinary decisions
led my life to connect with the life of a toddler by the name of
Justin Wheeler. I happened to be standing across the street from
him on a cool autumn morning as he wandered into the path of an
oncoming van. In an unthinking moment, I leapt out into the street,
grabbed him, and dove us both out of the way of the vehicle that
certainly would have killed him . . . and maybe me if I'd been
thirty seconds earlier or later arriving on the scene. Still, that
might have been the end of it, a heroic deed remembered only by
Justin Wheeler, his family, and me, except for the fact that a Post
photographer standing on the corner got the whole thing on film.
That photograph (a pretty amazing action shot, if I do say so
myself) led to another series of events that would force me to
question virtually everything about my former perfect life and
ultimately cause it to unravel in the most horrible ways.

The funny thing was, even after my life had dissolved around me,
even after everything I thought defined me had turned out to be a
lie, I found that I was still me. I still had the strength to move
forward into the unknown. And that was a pretty cool thing to learn
about myself.

My life may have looked as if it had been on the business end of a
wrecking ball, but Ridley Jones still emerged from the remains. And
though there were times when I didn't think it was possible, my
life settled back into a somewhat normal rhythm. For a while,

If you don't know what happened to me and how it all turned out,
you could go back now and find out before you move ahead. I'm not
saying the things that follow won't make any sense to you or that
you won't get anything out of the experience of joining me on this
next chapter of my vida loca. What I'm saying is that it's kind of
like sleeping with someone before you know her name. But maybe you
like it like that. Maybe you want to come along and figure things
out as we go, like any new relationship, I guess. Either way, the
choice is yours. The choice is always yours.

Well, I'll get to it, then.

I'm the last person in the world without a digital camera. I don't
like them; they seem too fragile. As if getting caught in the rain
or clumsily pushing the wrong button could erase some of your
memories. I have a 35-millimeter Minolta that I've been using since
college. I take my rolls of film and then drop them off at the same
photo lab on Second Avenue I've been using for years.

I had a friend who thought that there was something inherently
wrong with picture taking. Memory, he said, was magical for its
subjectivity. Photographs were crude and the direct result of a
desire to control, to hold on to moments that should be released
like each breath that we take. Maybe he was right. We're not
friends anymore and I have no pictures of him, just this memory
that resurfaces every time I go to pick up photographs. And then I
think about how he liked to sing and play the guitar after we made
love (and how he was really terrible at it--the guitar playing, the
singing, and the lovemaking, for that matter) but that the sight of
Washington Square Park outside his windows always seemed so
romantic that I put up with the rest for longer than I might have
otherwise. My memories of him are organic and three-dimensional,
pictures that exist only for me; there's something nice about that
after all.

So I was thinking about this as I pushed through the door of the
F-Stop to pick up some photos that were waiting for me. A desk
clerk I'd never seen before looked at me with practiced
indifference from beneath a chaos of dyed black hair and twin
swaths of eyeliner.

"Help you?" he said sullenly, placing a paperback binding up on the
surface in front of him. I saw the flash of a tongue piercing when
he spoke.

"I'm picking up photographs. Last name Jones."

He gave me a kind of weird look, as if he thought it was a name I'd
made up. (A note about New York City: Here, if you leave a plain or
common name, people treat you with suspicion. Meanwhile, if your
name would sound bizarre or made up anywhere else in the world--for
example, Ruby Decal X or Geronimo--it wouldn't even raise an
eyebrow in the East Village.)

The clerk disappeared behind a dividing wall and I thought I heard
voices as I glanced around at some black-and-white art shots on the
wall. After a short time, he returned with three fat envelopes and
lay them on the desk between us. He didn't say anything as he rang
up the sale. I paid him in cash, and he slid the envelopes into a
plastic bag.

"Thank you," I said, taking the bag from his hand.

He sat down without another word and returned to his book. For some
reason, I turned around at the door and caught him staring at me
strangely just before he averted his eyes.

I paused on the street corner at Second Avenue and Eighth Street.
My intent had been to stop by the studio and bring the photos to
Jake. They were some shots we had taken over the last few months: a
long weekend in Paris where we'd tried and failed to reconnect; an
afternoon spent in Central Park, where we fooled around on the
Great Lawn and things seemed hopeful; a miserable day with my
parents at the Botanical Gardens in Brooklyn, characterized by
heavy awkward silences, mini-outbursts, and barely concealed
dislike. Faced now with the reality of dropping in on Jake, I
balked, loitered on the corner staring at the sidewalk.

I don't want to tell you that my world has gone dark or that the
color has drained from my life. That sounds too dramatic, too
self-pitying. But I guess that's not too far off. When last you
heard from me, I was picking up the pieces of my shattered life. I
think we ended on a hopeful note, but the work has been hard. And
like any protracted convalescence, there have been more lows than

As of last month, Jake moved out of the apartment we shared on Park
Avenue South and is living semi-permanently in his studio on Avenue
A. Far from finding peace with his past and coming to terms with
what he has learned, Jake has become obsessed with Project Rescue
and Max's role in it.

By Max, I mean Maxwell Allen Smiley, my uncle who was not really my
uncle by my father's best friend. We shared a special connection
all my life. And last year I learned that he was really my
biological father. I am currently struggling to recast him in my
life as my failed father instead of my beloved uncle.

Project Rescue is an organization developed by Max, an abused child
himself, to help pass the Safe Haven Law in New York State years
ago. This law allows frightened mothers to abandon their babies at
specified Safe Haven sites, no questions asked, no fear of
prosecution. I discovered last year that there was a shadow side to
this organization. Cooperating nurses and doctors were secretly
flagging children they thought were potential victims of abuse and
unsafe in their homes. Through a collusion with organized crime,
some of these children were abducted and sold to wealthy parents.
In a sense, I was a Project Rescue baby, though my story is more
complicated. Jake is a Project Rescue baby for whom things went
horribly wrong.

Lately, Jake has abandoned his art. And while he and I have not
formally broken up, I have become a ghost in our relationship,
behaving like a poltergeist, tossing things about, making noise
just to get myself noticed.

I am reminded of something my mother, Grace, once said about Max: A
man like that, so broken and hollow inside, can't really love well.
At least he was smart enough to know it. They say we all fall in
love with our fathers over and over in a sad attempt to resolve
that relationship. Is it possible I was doing that before I even
knew who my father really was?

"Ms. Jones. Ridley Jones." I heard a voice behind me and went cold
inside. Over the past year, I had developed quite a fan club, in
spite of my best efforts to keep myself out of everything other
than my legal obligations involving Christian Luna's murder and the
investigation surrounding Project Rescue.

Excerpted from SLIVER OF TRUTH © Copyright 2007 by Lisa
Unger. Reprinted with permission by Shaye Areheart Books, an
imprint of Random House. All rights reserved.

Sliver of Truth
by by Lisa Unger

  • Genres: Fiction, Thriller
  • hardcover: 368 pages
  • Publisher: Shaye Areheart Books
  • ISBN-10: 0307338460
  • ISBN-13: 9780307338464