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Excerpt
Chapter
Nine
Fifty-two-year-old Winifred Johnson never entered the lobby of her
employer's apartment building on Park Avenue without feeling intimidated.
She had worked with Adam Cauliff for three years, first at Walters
and Arsdale, and then she had left with him last fall, when he started
his own company. He relied on her from the beginning.
Even so, whenever she stopped by his apartment, she couldn't help
feeling that one day the doorman would instruct her to use the delivery
entrance around the corner.
She knew that her attitude was the result of her parents' lifelong
resentment over imagined slights. Ever since she could remember,
Winifred's ears had been filled with their plaintive tales of people
who had been rude to them: They use their little bit of authority
on people like us who can't fight back. Expect it, Winifred. That's
the kind of world it is. Her father had gone to his grave railing
against all the indignities he had suffered at the hands of his
employer of forty years, and her mother was now in a nursing home,
where complaints of supposed slights and deliberate neglect continued
unabated.
Winifred thought about her mother as the doorman smilingly opened
the door for her. A few years ago it had been possible for her to
move her mother to a fancy, new nursing facility, but even that
hadn't stopped the endless flow of complaints. Happiness --- even
satisfaction --- did not seem to be possible for her. Winifred had
recognized this same trait in herself and felt helpless. Until I
smartened up, she told herself with a secret smile.
A thin woman, almost frail in appearance, Winifred typically dressed
in conservative business suits and limited her jewelry to button
earrings and a strand of pearls. Quiet to the point that people
often forgot she was even around, she absorbed everything, noticed
everything and remembered everything. She had worked for Robert
Walters and Len Arsdale from the time she graduated from secretarial
school, but in all those years neither man had ever appreciated
or even seemed to notice the fact that she had come to know everything
there was to know about the construction business. Adam Cauliff,
however, had picked up on it immediately. He appreciated her; he
understood her true worth. He used to joke with her, saying, "Winifred,
a lot of people had better hope you never write your autobiography."
Robert Walters overheard him and became both upset and unpleasant.
But then Walters had always bullied her unmercifully; he never had
been nice to her. Let him pay for that, Winifred thought. And he
will.
Nell never appreciated him. Adam didn't need a wife with a career
of her own and a famous grandfather who made so many demands on
her that she didn't have enough time for her husband. Sometimes
Adam would say, "Winifred, Nell's busy with the old man again.
I don't want to eat alone. Let's grab a bite."
He deserved better. Sometimes Adam would tell her about being a
kid on a North Dakota farm and going to the library to get books
with pictures of beautiful buildings. "The taller the better,
Winifred," he'd joke. "When someone built a three-story
house in our town, folks drove twenty miles just to get a look at
it."
Other times he would encourage her to talk, and she found herself
gossiping with him about people in the construction industry. Then
the next morning she would wonder if perhaps she had said too much,
her loquaciousness enhanced by the wine Adam kept pouring. But she
never really worried; she trusted Adam --- they trusted each other
--- and Adam enjoyed her "insider" stories about the building
world, tales from her earlier days with Walters and Arsdale.
"You mean that sanctimonious old bird was on the take when
those bids went out?" he'd exclaim, then reassure her when
she became flustered about talking so much. And then he'd promise
never, ever to say a word to anyone about what she had told him.
She also remembered the night he had said accusingly, "Winifred,
you can't fool me. There's someone in your life." And she had
told him, yes, even giving the name. And that was when she really
began to trust him. She confided that she was taking care of herself.
The uniformed clerk at the lobby desk put down the intercom telephone.
"You can go right up, Ms. Johnson. Mrs. Cauliff is expecting
you."
Adam had asked her to pick up his briefcase and his navy jacket
on the way to the meeting today. Being Adam, he had been apologetic
about the request. "I left in a hell of a rush this morning
and forgot them," he explained. "I left them on the bed
in the guest room. The notes for the meeting are in my briefcase,
and I'll need the jacket if I change my mind and decide to meet
Nell at the Four Seasons." Winifred could sense from his tone
that he and Nell must have had a serious misunderstanding, and hearing
it only bolstered her certainty that their marriage was heading
for the rocks.
As she rode up in the elevator, she thought about the meeting scheduled
for later in the day. She was happy that the location for the meeting
had been moved to the boat. She loved going out on the water. It
seemed romantic, even when the purpose was strictly business.
There would be just five of them. In addition to herself, the three
associates in the Vandermeer Tower venture --- Adam, Sam Krause
and Peter Lang --- would be attending. The fifth was Jimmy Ryan,
one of Sam's site foremen. Winifred wasn't sure why he'd been invited
except that Jimmy had been pretty moody lately. Maybe they wanted
to get to the heart of the problem and sort it out.
She knew they all would be concerned about the story that broke
in today's newspapers, although she didn't feel any concern herself.
In fact, she was rather impatient about the whole thing. The worst
thing that ever happens in these situations, even if they get the
goods on you, is you pay a fine, she told herself. You reach into
your back pocket, and the problem goes away.
The elevator opened right onto the apartment foyer, where Nell was
waiting for her.
Winifred saw the cordial smile of welcome on Nell's face fade as
soon as she stepped forward. "Is something wrong?" she
asked anxiously.
Dear God, Nell thought with sudden alarm, why is this happening?
But as she looked at Winifred, she could almost hear the knowledge
filtering through her being: Winifred's journey on this plane is
completed.
Excerpted from BEFORE I SAY GOOD-BYE Copyright (c) 2000 by Mary
Higgins Clark. Reprinted with permission from the publisher, Simon
& Schuster. All rights reserved.
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